A bit Better...

Hi Everyone!

Well, last night I had a mini meltdown with my sister on the phone! I mentioned that on yesterday's post about telling people how they should feel etc. Then I talked with the boyfriend...sigh...got some things out in the open how I have been feeling lately with us. We'll see if it changes?! At least he knows now. I'm really pooped because I only slept about 2 hours last night & I think 4 the night before. Seeing my car for the first time since the accident yesterday was really hard. I was in a lot of shock that day so I don't think it really absorbed until yesterday. I was very scared that day & felt odd until yesterday...like what did actually happen etc and yesterday I think reality smacked me in the face and I'm not sure how to totally process it yet. My mom had said if I was flipping airborne then Angels were holding me in the air & set me down gentle enough to not cause me to have injuries. You know mom's are always right! HA! I don't doubt it though...it certainly could be.

I got my St. Christopher medal out of my car today & as we were cleaning it up I found in the back pocket of my seat a flyer on our family friend Fr. Richie who died almost 3 yrs ago. There were pictures on it of him & still in there? He was in there with me & I have no doubt he was helping me out also! I think I will make sure to place in back in a new vehicle I get! :-) They gave me a Mazda CX7 because that is all they had so I only had to pay $2.88 extra a day beyond the $25 a day I have from my car insurance. I wanted to upgrade to a large size but this is a SUV category which should be like $40. I was happy, though I'm not sure I like this one. It has 4 wheel drive all the time & has dual exhaust..16+ tank...$50 to fill it! YIPES! I had my dad try to start my car. He couldn't at first but then did get it to go...I wanted to know how much gas I had in my tank that now would be wasted...very little...YA! Ha!

I think Chris & I are going to take more pictures tomorrow. I was much better today with my dad when I went to clean it out. That surprised me. My dad made me drive, which was hard & I was tired so I didn't want to because if something happened to him...but I wasn't too bad. I know there were times he was talking to me & I realized I was not listening because I was paying attention so much to driving & a few times I didn't realize until I was done but I did some deep sighs...so...but not too bad. After he left I did go grocery shopping and got something to eat on the way home. It was pouring when I finished getting my groceries which I was not thrilled about.

I'm not sure yet if I'll go up north to see Dr. Z. for my foot. I can't remember when my apt was so I'll have to go to sleep & get up earlier...we'll see. Maybe I can change it for later or right after Christmas instead. Both my ankles are bothering me a bit. My inside right wrist kinda feels odd this evening. When I bend my hand back toward the outside of my arm this cord thing sticks out & is sore? That arm I had on the wheel as I was flipping & the other up on the ceiling...maybe I irritated it a bit. Just today it is bothering me though? My knee a bit still...may go to the orthoped to check out both & make sure.

Well, I'll keep you posted. I'm really not even thrilled about going to look for a new car. I was telling my baby I am sooo sorry it got hurt & thank you for protecting me. I know I'm pathetic but...oh when I talked to the commander for our county patrol about how to go about getting a police report...he was so lovely with me. He asked how I was doing and said he has seen so many & it is very frightening & it is normal to feel this way & I will for awhile etc...he just like talked to me" for a while. I kept thanking him for his time & said I didn't want to take up his time & he is like you aren't etc... ha!He said when I get the officers names off the report to call him back & he'll give me their phone numbers to contact them. Just a sweet guy! I'll have to add him to the thank you list.

Well, I think I'll go get in my pjs & lay down. I know if I do I'll fall asleep. I was dozing when my mom was talking to me on the phone so...more later! (I initially did not repeat myself...copying & pasting thing! Ha! I fixed though!)