Saturday, April 14, 2007

The Lake House

Ahhh...The Lake House is on HBO Free Movies on Demand now! I have the DVD so I don't know why it is such a big deal, but it is nice to just click it on anytime. HA! I'm going to order the poster. I can't decide if I want the full Movie poster with credits or just this version above. I think I will put it in my bedroom with my poster of many multicolored hearts above my bed, the poster of the heart drawn in the sand, and my letter signs of "Dream", "Love" etc.

They just got to the part where "Alex" meets his brother. It was at Roosevelt University where I got my Masters! Every time I see the scene it brings back many emotions for me. I spent a great deal of time in that atrium (pix below) I remember one semester, one night each week my dad would work later that evening so he could pick me up when I was done with my evening class. He didn't want me taking the bus all the way home or I guess driving that late. I think class was over like 9:30pm. We would listen to "The Green Hornet" on the way home...really...some station had it on. I have such found memories of it now.

I was not thrilled with Roosevelt Univ. quite frankly. I should have known when my dad & I visited it for the first time. I was accepted to 3 out of the 4 graduate schools I applied to and the 4th called me actually & asked me to retake my GRE because I was very close to their cut off & I guess they wanted to have me. With having 3 already I just said I was ok. Ugh! I took the train home & dad & I met with the psych dept chair at that time. He went on & on bad mouthing IIT that they had all these problems & people leaving. Then he said, "Well when you get accepted" I said I was. Then he said "When you pick your program", I said I did. Then he said, "Well when you are assigned an advisor", I said you are assigned to me that is why we made this visit. He didn't give us a tour or say anything about the program or dept. It was quite obvious he didn't look at my file & prepare for this visit. Then he went on to say that he would not be my advisor that he was leaving at the end of that term. GEEZ! I should have taken it as a sign!

I got there in the fall & was so excited to register. They had all these cool classes in the catalog. Now I was only a few hours short of a double major in psych for my bachelors. Unfortunately, it was the one thing I missed myself & my advisor, who I loved. I should have delayed graduation & picked up those few hours so the double major would have been on my transcript. Of course he never suggested I go to grad school either. I was furious! Just tell me "No" or the lack of the suggestion was the same to me & "WATCH OUT!" I remember the day I walked into the psych dept with a big smile. He said, "Someone is sure happy today" and I told him I was accepted to 3 out of the 4 I applied to. His mouth just dropped open & I walked past him leaving him in the dust! HA!

[BREAK....sorry...the scene where they are dancing & kiss was just on...had to watch! HA! Makes me think about there is one man I wish I had danced with....sigh...I love the song they are dancing to. Tribute below has song!]

Ok, so back to RU...

So I go to register for all these exciting classes & they are not listed. I asked if they will be the next term & they tell me "Oh ya, we have them in our catalog but they are really never offered anymore!" UGH!!!!! So I end up taking classes I had already taken AGAIN. I'm paying for them again & $1,000.00 a class! And in some cases using the same text & no extra work. UGH! I was furious! So the following semester I went back to where I got my Bachelor's. I knew I could transfer some credits & I thought go where you know you will get a great education. My folks were very supportive. It was really weird because something told me to be very careful. I got my advisor & the Business Dean to sign two copies of letters saying the classes I was going to take would transfer as specific classes at RU. Later in the spring, I called to register to return & my advisor was on maternity leave. The dept chair says, "I can't accept any of these classes you are taking there" UGH! I said, "Well you have a copy of letters I have that are signed & say you will." He said he would call me back, which he did saying "I guess I will have to." UGH! I would have wasted time & money & I can tell you not only I but my dad would have had them in court.

[Ok, 2nd break...they are on the porch talking about the Jane Austen book "Persuasion"..."it is about waiting...these two people they meet and almost fall in love but the timing isn't right, they have to part and then years later they meet again and get another chance and you know they don't know if too much time has past, if they waited too long, too late to make it work?"  Big Sigh...]

Now before that phone call, the first week I was there I am walking into the psych dept & my old advisor & favorite prof there sees me and of course inquires as to why I am there. I explain my problems at RU & he says "Sit on that bench & don't move!" I respected him enough to listen. 15 minutes later he comes out of the Dept Chair's office & says "We want you to stay but you have to know quickly because if you stay we are changing all your classes." That was so great! It did say something to me that they wanted to change my classes too! It was a really tough decision! I decided to actually return to RU. I know, you'd think not but they were accrediated for the Industrial Psych program & the other wasn't & they had an internship program also & I thought this would be much more beneficial. Little did I know I would be teaching! HA! It was also very hard because I met someone when I got there & it was just amazing! I have only had this happen one other time prior to this & I think once after?

Ok, I was working at the guys dorm's desk & he was an RA. I was suppose to go out with a friend for her birthday & there was suppose to be a group of us but when the time came no one had $ or that is what I was told? So it was me, her & this RA I had not met yet. They both came to the desk as I was filling out some sub paperwork. I was my usual hurried self & talking while I was working but I hadn't looked up to talk to them. When I did finally look up he was smiling at me sooooo much I swear I turned around to see who he was smiling at. I was soooo embarrassed. I looked back at him & just realized it was me he was smiling like that at & it was just so Kinetic. Ok, so we get to the restaurant in town that gives you a free birthday dinner. The twoof them sit on one side of the booth & I am across from them in the center. We order & start talking & all of a sudden I notice my friend is done with her dinner & leaning on the wall watching the two of us. I am now sitting directly across from him & we are in our own little world like my friend is not there. I guess it is like when people say "It is like we have always known each other". We were so comfortable with each other. We could tell each other anything. In fact, I don't know if I have ever had a guy tell me so much of what he was feeling ever and so willingly. When I noticed this I try with my eyes to let him know & he is not getting it & she finally says, "It is my you think someone could talk to me!"  Ugh! I felt soooo bad. It was just sooo easy with him. Always has been. What I didn't know is he had a girlfriend. No I was good, but what I also didn't realize is my decision to go back to RU was bigger than I thought. One day I was walking on campus as classes were going on, so there really wasn't the crowd of people & he was coming down the hill & saw me & called out to me to wait. He asked me if I had made a decision yet & I told him I decided to go back. He didn't say anything for a bit & then said, "I need someone to go to the movies with & to hold hands with" I was like "What" (thinking)...I had no idea he was thinking this, that if I stayed he would want to see me more seriously. I'm thinking, why didn't you tell me this before I made my decision. Maybe he didn't want to know so that I wouldn't make it just for him but for me? I don't know? I try to think what would I have done if I did know this? Would it have changed my decision? I can't see that it would. I mean if we were more serious at the time sure but not just meeting someone that you don't know if it is going to work out, but I don't that logic only & not taking the chance so....Now I'm not so sure ha...age changes how you think of things...importance...I don't know. I just have faith that things turned out the way they are suppose to. One change & everything is different &....he married that girlfriend he had & now has like 5 kids! HA! They apparently needed to be on this planet & would not have been with me there more to this...did we meet again...well the rest of the term was very difficult & nice too and years later almost, but Desert Storm got in the way...but maybe it was suppose to...hmmm. But he will always be in my heart.

So I went back to RU & finished up the following fall & life just went on. Well, some more problems at RU but...ha! A prof who tried to be problematic...I hate sleezy guys (or women) who just try to get what they can for themselves and aren't there to do the work or give in return. Just totally unethical, unprofessional and not of value to me. 

[Last Break...the final grabbing & kissing her like you want her so bad! Loud Sigh with some tears...the cats are even wondering what the problem is. Ha!] 

Well, now you can see why seeing that scene brings up many different emotions with those memories. :-) And a movie of "yearning"  and "timing" getting in the the story of my life always! Yep...more maybe for another day...

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