Just Keep Thinking Summer!

Oh my has it been a long time since I have posted!

Yes, I'm still alive! HA!

I'm just so busy. I don't know where to begin. I'll have to catch you up over time but right now it it is a bit after 3am & I'll be heading to bed as soon as my 800mg of Motrin kicks in. I received a cortisone injection in my right shoulder today (technically yesterday). They said in about 4 hours, which should have been about 2pm, it would begin to ache. I was fine all day & thought great I'll be fine. Well, last couple 4 hours on the computer & now it begins to throb & ache. I have been having trouble with my right upper arm since Oct. It is hard to raise to turn back and it gets hard as a rock when I lift up & hurts. We tried 6 weeks of PT & it really didn't help. I had an MRI done last week. Today he said the Radiologist found a thick tear in my rotator cuff but the doc disagrees? So we will try the shot & 6 more weeks of PT & see what happens. I'm keeping my fingers crossed because it has been getting worse the last few weeks and getting hard to even work on the computer. I'm not sure it could be just over time getting old etc but I did have my arm up & hand supporting the roof of my SUV when it rolled over about 14 months ago so maybe it irritated it & now it is just pooped.

Easter was fun. My cousin came in with her family from CA so I spent time with them on Sat blessing baskets and my cousin's little girl asked me to go with them to visit the Easter Bunny so that was fun. Thursday I went up north to keep our family tradition of visiting 7 churches. My folks are in AZ for the winter & I usually do it with them. A few years I have done it with my cousins but now they are scattered & few busy so I actually did have fun myself this year. I spent Sunday with my sister & her new boyfriend who is a fireman/paramedic. He seems laid back and funny. We'll see. She seems happy and that is good. I'm kinda sad the family traditions are being lost with my generation. I really miss it.

I have about 3 more weeks after this week and then finals week! :-) Summer Vacation is on its way! I can't wait, warmer weather, birds, grilling outside...ahhhhh! And hey the Cubs have been winning so that is great! :-) Ok, more later...

Prayers Needed!

Hi Everyone!

I know I have not posted in quite sometime...just busy but today I need to ask for some prayers for someone who I can't really give you details about. I have been praying for him all evening and asking God to send him my Angels...if Ihave any & if they are not worn out from taking care of me.

Please pray that he keeps his courage and does not lose faith. Pray for him to find the correct words and help. Pray that his heart heals from any wrong doing by others to him. Pray that his spirit does not get so bruised that it loses faith in the good people of the world. Pray that he still feels love & support from those who know him best. Pray that when all is said & done that everything does side on in a just manner and provides more strength rather than weakens him. Pray that he finds a reason and purpose...perhaps wisdom if things have to be a struggle for a while. Pray that he feels God's spirit, the solid support & love that he is on this planet for a reason & still is needed and valued by soooo many. Pray that he gets very peaceful sleep knowing very securely in what he believes is right. (Yes, I know I'm not sleeping now obviously...soon...too worried!) Pray that if God says a door has to be closed he sees the window. Pray that he does know that God is giving this to him because he is the one to handle it. I know I struggle with this myself at times...that edited version...'I just wish God didn't think I was so strong'. :-) Pray he just remembers what is most important in life....not what everyone thinks but what he & his loved ones know him to be. Pray that if there is even an inkling of wrong doing that he is able to accept it, ask for forgiveness and move on rather than beat himself up over it. Pray if there was not any wrong doing on his part he does stay strong & secure and believes in himself.

Ok, I hope God heard all that.

The History of Today!

Hi Everyone!

Sorry...shopping post coming but this has to be first! What a day! I day full of excitement, anticipation, and HOPE! I don't know how history will reflect on this day in retrospect but to think one day kids will think this is no big deal is something I look forward to.

I was upset I could not find a lot of red/white/blue shirts to wear today. I did have a blue shirt & put on my red sweater from Christmas. Got my red/silver & blue beads hanging in my car. Dangling silver star bracelet. Did my best! :-)

I saw that my high school was in D.C. that was pretty cool. I heard one broadcaster call it "A Political Woodstock but 10 times better!" Wow! HA!

Well I would love to hear what you think about today? What did you do? I was up late or very early in the morning so I'm very pooped right now. I think I will head to bed earlier (famous last words) and start tomorrow early fresh & feeling more safe for my future.

You know last night I emailed my dad. I remembered my grandpa babysitting us when we were younger. I was a teen, I think it was Reagan's Ball. My grandpa says just straight face, "I didn't get my ticket to the ball" I was laughing so much. I can't remember what my stepgrandma said but something like you didn't want to be there anyway or they probably would have food you wouldn't like or something. He was a hoot that night! One right after the other. I miss him and I wish both my sets of grandparents were here today to have seen this. Many relatives actually!

I'll tell you also, any student who does not want to do something...prepare for their future...oh boy are they going to get it! They are talking about the president using Myspace & blogs etc...how can they not want to!

My Day Off!

Well I'm not this bad!

What did I do on my day off? Went to the Dentist! Ugh!

Well, normally that would not have been such a horrible thing. Oh about 3 1/2 yrs ago. Why...dad would have probably bought me lunch! HA! Did I ever tell you my dad is...ok was a dentist? He retired and so now I found one that actually remembered me as a kid. His dad made crowns for my dad's patients. He said he remembered bringing me the cases, I answered the door. Man, I'm in my 40s & this would have to be prior to 13 yrs old when we moved from that house. Remembers what street it was & everything. Probably remembered old psychotic me! HA! Maybe I met him at the door in my bikini or something! HA! We had a pool so?

Ok, so I had to get a crown prep. Ugh! It is the first one in my life. Last molar on top left. Sometime in the early 80s I was working with my dad & over lunch the Hygentist was going to clean my teeth. Well!...she stuck the scaler between the back teeth & I hit the ceiling. My dad came running. Turned out there was a cavity in between. We x-rayed & you couldn't see it because the molars will overlap causing a shadow but he drilled a bit & found the hole. Over the years it has just slowly gotten bigger with a side one developing & kinda meeting the other part & last year the filling fell out so this new guy tried to put one in, but didn't know if there was really enough tooth to keep it & sure enough few months later it came out. So, I finally got it done after my flex account kicked in Jan 1st. One great advantage with dad...payment was a kiss & I love you! :-X Free toothbrushes & toothpaste & sample sizes of tylenol etc. & my dad always saved me the new flavors of flouride when he was cleaning my teeth. He'd let me try & if I liked it he would order it for patients! HA! When we were kids he had these toothbrushes that were in the long tube & on each end was a half of a dog..you know those wiener dogs...red I remember. I loved those. HA! Then you got those red tablets that you would chew & it would show with red on your teeth where you missed brushing! HA! He always took us for rides up & down in the chair also! His patients were wonderful. They all knew us. I'll come home from college & come to his office & if he was busy with a patient one of the others waiting in the other rooms would see me go by & call out. They'd ask me if my teacher was still bugging me & how this guy was...they knew all the details! HA! Of course my dad knew about their kids too. Generations of patients. The days when it was about helping & not about making the most money & having the most toys!

Well, back to this lovely tooth of mine. I think that tooth also may have been the one that I lost half of the filling on a cheeseburger in college. Lovely cafeteria, although I should not complain, we had prime rib there & shrimp! It was sooooo good! Next day, they would put the shrimp cut up in the salad bar line, I'd just get cupsful. So my dad would not let me wait to come home & I had to see a dentist out there. First time I ever went to anyone other than my dad. Very odd. You know it is not only a dentist you have gone to all your life but "Daddy"! He won't hurt you unless he really can't help it! You trust him completely you know! So, that guy was going to give me novacaine without any choice & I'm like stop...how much do you have to drill & I'm like try first without. My dad always gave a choice. Some rather their mouths numb for hours, others rather a bit of pain & no numbing. My mom's dad you could drill for crowns and he'd be gabbing away. Didn't feel a thing. Wow! I apparently did not get those genes! HA! I didn't have my first cavity until I was 13 yrs old when I got my braces off. Under the band. I only had them on 1 yr & 8 months I think. Amazing how you will always remember how long! HA! So I had them off sometime in 7th grade I think? When my dad filled that tooth that day the scaler tortured me, it took him 3 shots of novacaine to numb it enough for him to even touch it with his finger. Today a first doc came in & shot me up. Then my dentist, Dr. B., came in & drilled away & nothing! No pain! Ahhhhh! He gave me a bit more for the inside gum when they were going to get the temporary in. I have to go back on President's Day to get the permanent one. Ya, my day's off...geez!

He asked me if I wanted porcelain or gold. I don't smile big enough to see that back molar & he said my bite is real tight so I could crack it. Dad says go with the gold. I figured the man who has his tongue in me, if he has a problem with it not looking natural, then he can just look at the other "natural" parts of me & see it is not all that great anyways! HA! Now, I also have to explain that typically when they numb me for cortisone shots it doesn't really work. After I leave the doctors office then it is numb. Ugh. So I was soooo thrilled. I was there about 2 hours with him drilling & then building it up. The numb face was starting to go away & then an hour after I left it started to throb. I'm like oh boy I have to teach tomorrow. 800 mg of Motrin, Extra Strength Tylenol & shopping cured that! HA! I swear when you don't concentrate on it it helps. Kohls had a sale, what do you want! HA! Now it is not throbbing but sore & can't really bite on it. I can't eat nuts or gum etc now until Feb. Ugh! But I'll have it in before I head up north for a presentation I'm doing at a college I use to teach at, so that will be good. I can enjoy going out to dinner with everyone etc.

Ok, so I guess it wasn't too bad of a day, except I wish I could have just putzed around at home & got things done, but that is why we get "Tomorrow". Next post I'll tell you what I got shopping! :-)

Oh also...I forgot to tell you...when they were measuring to do the impressions, I said, I know I have a big mouth & she said actually your mouth is small. I was shocked! HA! I said can I get that in writing for my coworkers, friends & family for proof! She laughed. I said that to my neurologist I see for my migraines when she said my brain was normal. I must just project well or just talk fast! HA!

Heart Dreams

Oh boy now I'm in trouble!

Music can do that though. Now I'm off dreaming, feeling, thinking ugh! I remember in college I'd go to sleep...well to bed...and put my headphones on to listen to music & most nights I'd fall asleep but then other nights I'd be like "oh I love that song" and then another would come on & then another...ha! BTW this is one of my favorite Kim Anderson pictures. I see myself in it I guess. Seems like my spirit. I also love hats! HA! My mom & I would go shopping & try on all the hats & be silly & laugh & have soooo much fun. I really miss doing that. Maybe we can this summer. I bought her this HUGE brimmed summer hat for Christmas. I put it behind her Stocking and in the morning you know you are waiting for everyone to get up & open presents & I asked her if everyone was coming & she said I don't know but they better because I WANT THAT HAT! HA! I was hoping she would love it but then also if she didn't it would be mine! HA! No, there was only one! Got it at World Market & guess what...it was only $3! I swear! I'll try to get a picture of it. I have a bunch of big hats, some winter & some summer. I need to find a long black coat so I can wear my winter ones & I think I will make this summer hat season! I missed my era I guess. I would have loved when all the women wore hats!


This next one is the only copy I can find. It is called "I know how to win a heart" :-) Ya, flowers would do it for me too...though I don't like red rosees. I like pink though. He is cute I think. I like 2 other types of flowers though more...Peonies & Lilacs.

This one I really love! I just found a big picture of at a resale shop & bought it. Have to still hang it in my bedroom. Ok, off to dream some more...

Later...HA!

Well that was fast...Ha!

My brother was helping me with something on the computer & put up his ITunes to play some songs for me by David Archuleta. After I posted that last post To Be With You came on & I really liked it. Have you heard it? I just seem to connect to it. Here is the lyrics:

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way... Ooohh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you, yeah. You....

Mall Cop

Hi Everyone!

Up north with my niece. We were suppose to go see the Dog Hotel movie but she changed her mind & wanted to see Mall Cop. Thank God we got tickets early & the line was still so long to wait to get in the show. The movie was really good. I like Kevin James so I didn't mind very much. I liked him in Hitch also! He is cute in King of Queens too. I just think he is adorable. I know guys probably don't like us calling them that but we just don't tell them! HA! He is funny & sweet & just I don't know but I know I'd go out with him if he was available. Ha! Sweet smile, very penetrating eyes, ya...Sexy! Seems like he'd be very loyal and protective too. Ya, I know next week's headline will say he cheated on his girl, and swindled some elderly people. Ha! No, just kidding! Everyone in the theater seemed to like the movie. They were clapping at the end.

They showed the Harry Potter preview. I'm soooo excited. I like want to go at the midnight showing this time. HA! Oh man, I can't wait for Summer, actually I'd just take Spring now! It is 19 degrees now! WOW!

Went to acupuncture today. I was soooo relaxed. She worked on my lower back. It was doing pretty good & kinda bothering me a bit tonight. Seems like my SI joints & then sides of legs & hips...same old story, but hopefully it will get better. Probably doesn't like the treadmilling but just going to keep trying.

Well that is it for now...more later!